Coming at you LIVE- from... Well...

Guess who has two thumbs and will be in North Carolina in about 12 hours? This gal! ;) I'm heading back to see my family for a few days... Going to the beach, and enjoying the mountains, before I hike back up to this crazy city, write three books, and move around the world in February.

Yep. February.

I'm [planning on] moving to Sydney in February instead of July, in order to help plant a church with my pastors here in New York. I'm really excited, and will never say no to travel.

I've lived in New York for a year, now. Every day, the skyscrapers still make me smile, and I know that I'm a city girl at heart. The journey from North Carolina to New York (and the stops along the way) sometimes feels like it took forever, and yet I can remember sitting on my bed at home, looking out my window at the trees and my bags, packed on the floor, desperately wanting to cancel the whole thing. Call school, tell them I'm not coming after all, give my scholarship money to someone else.

But I didn't. I leaped, not sure how my landing would be, and I'm better for it. I'm sure that I will have the same feelings next year when I move even farther away than New York, but I'm going to cross that ocean when I come to it. Literally. For now, it's just me on my computer, typing away, drinking too much caffeine, and daydreaming.

Gotta go pack.

Later!

Seasons of love.

Last season, my life was a bit different. I had everything that I needed, and more; my reliance on God was for my emotional stability, and direction towards the future.






 It’s funny how we take so much for granted. 

I’m in a phase in my life right now where my reliance on God has become pretty... overwhelming. My reliance has gone from the emotional, to the emotional and the physical, and I am gently reminded that I only like to pretend that I have everything together. As my mom put it, “God works things out in the nick of time- not necessarily when we want, but definitely when we need.”

Faith in action is believing that God will provide for you, say- something like an apartment, and trusting that you will have a place to sleep at night. This doesn’t mean that freak-outs won’t happen, (you ARE human, after all) but in that last hour, right as your heart is beating and you’re unsure that something will work out, and you can only be on the floor in front of God, giving up all control, he flips the switch and there’s an apartment available TODAY, 10 blocks from where you’re currently crashing, and- yeah, God is good.

Faith is knowing that God is good even when things look hopeless. God did not provide for me because I said my prayers the right way or because I didn't curse or I paid my tithe on time- God provided for me because he loves me. That’s how I believe this thing works... God created the world out of love, and yeah- I don’t have the answers to why bad things happen to good people, or why there is hunger and poverty in the world, but I know that it’s my duty to help if I can, and sometimes even if I can’t. Because that’s what Jesus would do, and he was a pretty good guy.

I live in a chaotic world, interwoven with grace, and am constantly reminded that God is good, even when it doesn't look that way.


I am loved.

A postcard.

It's been a crazy couple of months. I moved from my convenient, midtown apartment onto a couch in Queens, which was 75 minutes away from my job. So when my boss asked me to work at 5, my alarm was set for a lovely 3am. I learned to nap on the train, so it all worked out in the end.

Currently, I'm subletting from a friend in Manhattan (I love Manhattan. A BUNCH.) so it's been lovely to be back, and only 19 minutes away from work! I'm enjoying having time to just explore the city, and hang out with friends... Movies in Bryant Park, book festivals, late night dinners, watching the Tony's from the TKTS steps in Time's Square, reading much and laughing often. Summer in New York has quickly become one of my favorite things, even though it's hot and humid outside.

I'm looking forward to this upcoming year, which will be my first as a "grown up," being that I don't have school. Cannot wait.

Sorry this post isn't nearly as eloquent as those before, but I figured you all were more than due an update.

Much love from Manhattan. :)

Molls

P.S. I also got bangs.

Standing on the top of the world.

My life is currently a big ball of uncomfortable. I hate saying goodbye to people, and this weekend has had an abundance of goodbyes. I’m saying goodbye to friends from school, and I’m leaping without much assurance that I’ll land on my feet. I’ve got a place to crash right now, but I’m still needing to find some longer term housing. I’m saying goodbye to my roommates soon, and even though she just arrived to help me move/pack, I’ll be saying goodbye to my mom on Monday. I'd be very happy to keep her with me forever, thank you.

There are moments where all I want to do is go back to being a kid and not having to think about things like rent and bills and jobs.

I said goodbye to the ESB tonight in the best way that I know how- by venturing from her dungeons to the top observation deck. It was breathtaking, and I got to experience it with one of my favorite people {mom}. This doesn’t have much of a point, except to share EACH step of my journey.

Here I am, breathing, taking this whole thing one step at a time.